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Saturday, April 18, 2009 1:28 AM

hais ): it is so late again. POST 200! i think, which i now reserved it for sth tht is really bothersome.. making me fed up srsly ):
but training 1st..
so ncos dun scold, dun pump, jus command us, give us water break, training "productive", which is f***ing slow to me. and yes definitely discipline dropped, which i dun understand why when after being nagged at of our no sense of urgency tht small squad today still have no awareness/sense to maintain order. we return back to position slow, start marching off and screwing up, den laugh a while. ): den we had captains ball. still okay

well, nxt wednesday will have nyaa briefing, after tht cse. and to go emitrophy carve for championship troph. gah when i think of this no free day zzz
arghhhz den there's jap compo test nxt wk. den after tht there's art appreciation shyt zzz means i dun need do work le lah. it was planned to have unit camp meeting tht day.. but thankfully it is on a saturday now -.-
and received email for selected participants for shooting comp, and yes my name isnt in, but i may find chance if i appeal. but cos of the jap compo i may only commit myself after nxt thurs, which is the 1st shooting practice. argh how m i to try appealing? ._.
and wth.. i should have just printed out tht piece of shyt frm smb (smb is more shyt), now cant even access... AND I NEED TO GET MEDICAL CHECK UP DONE BY TMR NOON. how do i accomplish that lah my parents gna screw meeeeeee DDD;
wanna cry alr ):

now i m doubting my ability to perform. i get so damn nervous when it comes to performing and i nvr fail to tremble like shyt and screw up lah ): morning flag raising has been 4 weeks for me but im still shaking like duno wad ): why must this happen!? (say even when it comes to dotaing, when either my opponent's or my health's get low, my heart jus start popping out) also during classi. ): but nvrtheless im sending appeal now.
after all these shyt it is back to 2am again why the eff????